Blogmas 2018

Blogmas Day 19: How I got back onto the fitness wagon

After falling off the fitness wagon, I had a very hard time getting back on track again. Getting out of that vicious binge cycle and starting to eat clean and disciplined again took me quite some time. But I knew I had to get back on track and reach my goals, my weight gain had made me depressed and bitter again and I really missed how happy I had been when I had lost weight. Early 2016 (around April) was when I finally got back to eating clean but I’d still do Cheatdays. That is when I realized frequent Cheatdays were a big issue and I finally started to take more interest in nutrition and being a lot more disciplined with myself and my diet.

At that time I also increased my workouts from 3 Days a week to 5 and later 6 Days a week. Even though I was much more disciplined and wouldn’t even have a Cheatmeal for pretty much the rest of the year (besides Thanksgiving and Christmas which were a lot more disciplied than ever) I was maintaining my weight, no loss whatsoever. Being stuck on a plateau for so long was extremely frustraiting and demotivating, but I still didn’t give up.

I was devastated and didn’t know what I was doing wrong, my brother suggested I’d try Keto for a while to see if I had more success with that. After debating for quite some time and trying to educate myself on it, I tried the Keto diet around Jan/Feb 2017. Unfortunately that was an awful experience for me. I tried it for about 3 months, again no weightloss whatsoever, on the contrary I actually gained 2kg/4.5lbs. And I was constantly feeling off, my digestion and just in general I didn’t feel well and was dizzy quite often. After those awful 3 months I went back to my prior routine and did Low Carb and finally started to see results again.

Later on in my journey I started implementing more carbs as I was extremely low carb prior I started focusing a lot more on eating a more balanced diet and focusing a lot more on my relationship with food which has become much healtier I’d say.

I fell in love with the progress and myself throughout this entire jounery of getting healthier and working on something for solely myself, even before finding what worked best for me. This jouney has been more than just a weightloss journey, my life has changed so much. I’m not who I used to be 2014 physically and mentally and I couldn’t be happier about that.

Blogmas 2018

Blogmas Day 18: How I fell off the fitness wagon

I started my journey End of 2014 but I first started losing weight 2015, by June/July I had lost 17kg /37.5lbs which I was super happy about. As you might know if you read some of my previous posts my relationship with food wasn’t something I had really worked on up to this point in my journey.

About 2-3 months into my journey I’d allow myself to have an entire Cheatday every single Sunday. So every Sunday I’d eat whatever I wanted, the entire day, no calorie tracking whatsoever. I would’t eat extraordinarily big amounts of food but I’d eat high calories, well over my limit (Candy adds up very quick..) at first that wasn’t an issue I’d still lose weight but then I hit a plateau. At the same time I finished all my Exams and stared working my first real job, I’d work long hours and had to commute (+2.5 hrs each way) every day to get to work. It was a very stressful time I barely had any time for myself, let alone strenght to go to the gym after a long day (also difficult because I was using public transportations), at the end of the day I was even to exhausted to meal prep. I would buy my meals at a grocery store close by, at the beginning I’d still eat quite healthy, but soon I started to buy comfort food and quickly I put on a few pounds that I had lost. Approximately 10kg/22lbs to be exact.

Not being able to workout was so demotivating and all that stress led to me simply not really caring anymore. Luckily that job that caused me so much stress was only temporarily. Pretty much the rest of year 2015 I struggled to get back on track again, I was stuck in a vicious cyle of binge eating. The fact that I felt like I had lost control (over my eating) and that I had put on weight was frustrating and depressing I felt like a failure. I knew I had to get a grip and take control over the situation again in order to feel better physically and emotionally. I had to prove to myself that I actually was capable of doing it all over again, and I did.

*Find out how I got back onto the fitness wagon in my next post.

Weightloss journey

How my journey began (Part 2)

When I decieded it was time for a change I asked my Brother who is a fitness trainer and bodybuilder for advice. I told him it was time for a change and that I’m absolutely serious about it, I couldn’t continue living the way I was living before. I told him I was willing to do whatever it takes to achieve my goal of losing weight and living a healthy life.

He took his time and we kinda worked on a plan or let’s say guidelines on how to change my eating habits. He taught me on what I should focus when it comes to my diet. With his help and lots of disciplin I managed to lose 17 kg (37.48 lbs) until July 2015. By that time I had also finished my apprenticeship and soon started a new Job.

Unfortunately my new Job was extremly stressful (it took me about 2 hours getting there, so I traveled 4 hours each day sometimes even longer) I felt devastated at the End of the day. I barely had any time to get to the gym and I felt way to tired to actually do so. I didn’t take the time to meal prep anymore like I used to do before. Since I was always on the run I started to gain weight back again (about 10 kg to be exact), I fell off track. I started to feel burned out soon, I was basiclaly living to work and nothing else. Anyways that job didn’t last to long (for different reasons) which I’m glad about.

Anyways sometimes when one door closes another one opens up. I had the opportunity to move to the US, which I decided to take. It’s always been my dream and I have to say I finally feel “Home” I feel as if this was one missing puzzle piece for my happiness.

Back to the Story, I was struggeling to lose the weight I gained back. I started working out regularly again and maintian my diet but no matter what I did I couldn’t lose weight. I was stuck on a plateau for pretty much the entire year 2016 which was extremely frustraiting and just recently broke through it. Actually I’m now down exactly 20 kg (44.09 lbs) since I first started my fitness journey. To finally see progress again sure is a big motivation. If things continue the way I want them to (if my metabolism plays along) I may be able to reach my goal weight by the End of 2017. But I’ve got so much more I want to reach,I will probably do a separate post about that. 

Honestly looking back, falling of track has shown me how much I really want this and made me stonger and more disciplined since getting back on track was really difficult yet I never gave up. 

P.S. I will try to start posting more regularly so stay tuned to read where my journey will lead me.

I will soon publish my experience with the contraceptive pill and what impact it can have with building muscle and your health in general.