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Blogmas 2018

Blogmas Day 19: How I got back onto the fitness wagon

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After falling off the fitness wagon, I had a very hard time getting back on track again. Getting out of that vicious binge cycle and starting to eat clean and disciplined again took me quite some time. But I knew I had to get back on track and reach my goals, my weight gain had made me depressed and bitter again and I really missed how happy I had been when I had lost weight. Early 2016 (around April) was when I finally got back to eating clean but I’d still do Cheatdays. That is when I realized frequent Cheatdays were a big issue and I finally started to take more interest in nutrition and being a lot more disciplined with myself and my diet.

At that time I also increased my workouts from 3 Days a week to 5 and later 6 Days a week. Even though I was much more disciplined and wouldn’t even have a Cheatmeal for pretty much the rest of the year (besides Thanksgiving and Christmas which were a lot more disciplied than ever) I was maintaining my weight, no loss whatsoever. Being stuck on a plateau for so long was extremely frustraiting and demotivating, but I still didn’t give up.

I was devastated and didn’t know what I was doing wrong, my brother suggested I’d try Keto for a while to see if I had more success with that. After debating for quite some time and trying to educate myself on it, I tried the Keto diet around Jan/Feb 2017. Unfortunately that was an awful experience for me. I tried it for about 3 months, again no weightloss whatsoever, on the contrary I actually gained 2kg/4.5lbs. And I was constantly feeling off, my digestion and just in general I didn’t feel well and was dizzy quite often. After those awful 3 months I went back to my prior routine and did Low Carb and finally started to see results again.

Later on in my journey I started implementing more carbs as I was extremely low carb prior I started focusing a lot more on eating a more balanced diet and focusing a lot more on my relationship with food which has become much healtier I’d say.

I fell in love with the progress and myself throughout this entire jounery of getting healthier and working on something for solely myself, even before finding what worked best for me. This jouney has been more than just a weightloss journey, my life has changed so much. I’m not who I used to be 2014 physically and mentally and I couldn’t be happier about that.

Blogmas 2018

Blogmas Day 5: A Mistake I made and what I learned form it

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One of the biggest mistakes I made throughout my journey surely was to do entire Cheatdays. At first I was pretty restricitve but a few months into my journey, I figured it would be okay to allow myself to eat whatever I wanted once a week. So I started having a Cheatday every single Sunday.

Not a Cheatmeal, an entire Day. I would eat whatever I wanted. I wouldn’t track any calories that day, but I sure ate well over my limit. Not portion size wise, I have never been one to eat extraordinary big quantities of food. It’s what I ate that was the issue, I’d have stuff like candy, pancakes, cereal but even small portions of those add up quickly because they’re high in calories. After such a day I’d feel absolutely miserable, my digestion had a hard time handling the food I ate. I noticed I was developing an unhealthy mindset. I’d work hard throughout the week to reach Sunday and finally treat myself. It was almost as if that was the only thing that got me going. I soon noticed that as someone who used to struggle with binge eating that was not a good solution for me and it also slowed down my weightloss. After each Sunday my body had to get rid of the excess water it retained from the high carb food I had consumed, so it was a vicious cycle.

I fell off the wagon sometime later and had to almost start over from the beginnig as I had gained some weight back (I will go more into detail in a later post). Anyways one thing I learned, I had to make this mistake and several others to get to where I am now and to find what works best for me and my body. I noticed that after starting over but without constant cheating my body would look a lot better even at the same weight as previous.

I don’t regret making this mistake as I learned a lot from the experience.

Throughout the years I developed a much healthier mindset and relationship with food. I will still allow myself to eat something thats not part of my regular diet but it’s only one meal that I swap now and it’s very rare that I do so. Not because I over restrict or anything like that, I just don’t have the desire as often as I used to (but nowadays I also would’t allow myself to manipulate my own success like that.. I developed a lot of discipline). If I choose to eat something outside my regular diet my choices have become much healthier which I’m really happy about (I still have a sweet tooth though but I have it so much better under control now).

This honestly has been a difficult post for me to write, as it’s the first time for me to be so open about struggles I had with my diet and my relationship with food. My binge eating for example has been my “dirty little secret” from before I started my journey and was something that I just never talked about. This is the first time for me to actually even mentioning or admiting to it at all.